Juggling life


I’m having a bit of writer’s block and I think it’s because I feel like my brain is going to explode. I shouldn’t be surprised, seeing as I feel like I am juggling about a million things at the same time. And I’m not overwhelmed by everything, because they are happening and I can’t change it. I would say that I am excellent at multi-tasking, and have no issues whatsoever in turning my brain off at night. In fact, I look forward to it. But there’s something that has to give sometimes.

Work is crazy busy and I am working on quite a few larger projects and campaigns, that require my undivided attention. I prefer my days to be busy, and I’m learning a lot, so I love it. I am taking an online course, which is winding down. And coming closer to the end means that I have a major final project due, so I have been starting to work on that, which is starting to take up more of my time. Easter is around the corner and I’m having my family at my house this year. Luckily my dad is making the main dish, so I just have to worry about the first course and sides. But hosting comes with another set of responsibilities, which includes organizing a few extra things in my house and making sure there will be a place for everyone.

And of course, this time of year means we are in the thick of the birthday extravaganzas. And it wasn’t until yesterday that I’ve been able to breathe a sigh of relief for my Little Bird’s birthday. If you follow my blog, you know that I created theme-party snobs and both of my girls are always ahead of the curve when it comes to their theme of choice for their birthdays. They like what’s popular; however they usually like it before it is widely available and that means I need to search websites and scour the earth in order to make sure they have everything they want to round out said theme.

This year, the Little Bird is OBSESSED with Disney’s Frozen – like half the world is. The problem is anything related to this movie is sold out. I got lucky and was able to order the plates/napkins/cups/etc. from a website, that I checked every day until it stated one day now available. The stress that has been putting me over the edge has been the cake. Since I have invited her whole class, I need a large cake and really didn’t want to pay an arm and a leg. I called numerous stores for that rice paper transfer to place an edible image on the cake (yes, I was trying to do it myself). I tracked down the Ana and Elsa Disney Infinity characters – and we don’t even have the game! They are for the cake!

Until yesterday, I was feeling doomed. As we get closer to the day, it looked like she was destined to get a plain cake with two characters and a candle. And then, thanks to the suggestion of a friend, I called a grocery store I hadn’t called yet. They confirmed they can put an edible image on a cake! I was already happy with that, but at the end of the conversation with the lovely lady in the bakery department, she mentioned to me that she just received the Frozen cake design and invited me to visit her to place an order that night. I instantly jumped up and almost told the lady that I loved her.

Too much?!

I don’t think so.

It was exactly what I needed to feel like I am close to finishing the plans for her party. And while I drove to the store to place my Frozen cake order with the lovely lady, I wondered if all this effort is worth it? And then I knew when I saw the design, that my Little Bird would be so happy that yes, all the stress over one cake is totally worth it!

So as I figure out a way to stuff 25 loot bags and wrap all my nephews’ Easter presents, organize my dining room and meal plan Easter lunch; I have a final assignment due in 11 days and better start focusing my energy on that next.

Think good thoughts for me! I’m going to need it.

 

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Let’s Go!

So here we are.

I’ve been looking through my CDs, searching YouTube and racking my brain to come up with a song appropriate for this momentous occasion. And I can’t seem to land on the right one.

Everything I think I should play, doesn’t hit the right note, or leave me with the right feeling. I went through songs of the 80s, 90s and beyond. But just when I thought I was going to give up and not post a song today, I finally decided on a song.

I finally have the feeling that is this is the start of something good. It’s time to make the most of everyday, including today, so let’s do this! Cheers to the next forty!

Have a fabulous day!

 

 

Let’s Go
Calvin Harris, feat. Ne-Yo

Let’s go!
Make no excuses now
I’m talking here and now
I’m talking here and now

Let’s go!
Your time is running out
I’m talking here and now
I’m talking here and now

It’s not about what you’ve done
It’s about what you doing
It’s all about where you going
No matter where you’ve been
Let’s go!

Let’s go!
Let’s go!
Let’s go!
Let’s go!

There ain’t no better time
I’m talking here and now
I’m talking here and now

Let’s go!
Right now is where you shine
I’m talking here and now
I’m talking here and now

It’s not about what you’ve done
It’s about what you doing
It’s all about where you going
No matter where you’ve been
Let’s go!

Let’s go!
Let’s go!
Let’s go!
Let’s go!

Let’s make it happen
Ooh, let’s make it happen tonight
Let’s make it happen
Ooh, let’s make it happen tonight
Let’s make it happen
Ooh, let’s make it happen tonight
Let’s make it happen
Ooh, let’s make it happen tonight
Let’s go!

Let’s go!
Let’s go!
Let’s go!
Let’s go!

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An ode to my thirties


In a few days, I have to say goodbye to my thirties. It’s time to start a new chapter in my life, and I can’t help but have a feeling of uncertainty about it. Sure, people say it’s the best time of their life. And sure they say that “life begins at forty”. But how can I be so sure?

These are the moments where you have to close your eyes and trust it’ll all work out. It’s not like I have a choice. It is what it is, right?!

{sigh}

No matter what I feel, it’s happening. So I thought I’d take a minute to look back on my thirties.

I started it out unemployed. I was newly laid off and unsure of my future. I had a new boyfriend, and although we had only been dating less than three months, I knew he was the one! My best friend was away at school and I had recently just moved back home with my parents.

I’d say it was a pretty rough time, but then things started looking up; I landed a job, taking a chance on a 3-month contract that eventually turned to full-time employment. I had some good people in my life and things were going well in my relationship. By the end of that year, D and I were engaged.

I married my soul mate a year later and he opened my eyes to the true meaning of love and importance of saving and finances. We bought a house three years later and had our Little Bird. We renovated 90% of that house – and are still married. (That’s an accomplishment!)

I got laid off again (yes, again!) and fought hard to find the job I’m in now. I learned about my determination and confidence during that job search and while it was a difficult time, I wouldn’t change it.

A couple years later we had the Little Mouse.

I’ve been schooled a time or two by these two little girls and they certainly give me a run for my money, but I love it. I love them! And while the thought of the teen years scare the life out me, I’m ready for it.

I’ve seen a bit of the world in the past 10 years, including Cuba, Orlando, Portugal, New York and San Diego and loved each and every one of those trips.

I’ve had to let go of some friends in my life, for various reasons, but treasure the usual suspects in my life. These girls have been there for me and I count on them, even if it’s just a coffee once in a while, because our lives have all evolved and we have our own things going on. They are my friends and I love them.

I’ve seen my parents evolve and our relationship change. They have both prospered and struggled at different times, and over different things, but watching how they handle the difficult times, has helped me learn how to be a better daughter and friend to both of them.

I had to let go of my scrapbooking business, but still maintain my love of everything creative. Even if it’s just once every other month, being able to have an outlet to be creative is so rejuvenating.

I enrolled in courses again, mainly for work, but mostly for me. I love it and while I may have to get creative with juggling my priorities, I’m making it work and proving to myself that I can do anything I set my mind to.

I found writing again and I started this blog. While it took a while to get revved up, once it got going, I haven’t looked back. I’m not afraid to put myself out there, speak my mind and stand up for what I believe in. I’m not afraid to take a chance. I’m starting to see the fruits of my labour and I’m proud of myself.

I think the only thing I wish was different, was not the number on the cake, but the number on the scale. I imagined that I would look different at this time of my life. I can’t even tell you why I thought that, but it’s something I struggle with. And while I am a confident person at any size, for some reason I think I wanted my reflection to look a little different at forty.

This is something I need to work on, for myself and for my girls. I see those commercials and they scare me; I want to be there for my kids in the future and I want to be a good role model. So I need to make some changes to my lifestyle.

Aside from that, as I look back, I can’t help but smile as life has been good to me. I can’t help but feel happy, as it’s all here in black and white! Everything that I have done has led me to where I am today. And as I look ahead, this number is ahead of me. Like, right in front of me.

Okay, let’s do this! I have a solid foundation built with the accomplishments of my past and the love and support of my family and friends. How bad can it be?!

Regardless of what the next 10 years hold, I’m ready. My feet are firmly planted on the ground, my eyes are wide open and I’m not afraid to be who I am. I will always love with my whole heart, speak my mind and stand for what I believe in. I will not tolerate bullshit or standby when somebody is being taken advantage of. I will defend what’s right and preserve what is good, for all those in my life. I will never lie to further myself, cheat to get ahead or steal somebody else’s idea. And I will never compromise myself. I am who I am and that will never change.

No matter how old I am.

Hey Brother!

You know those days when you need a good tune to get you in a good mood? Today is one of those days.

I find myself playing this one over and over. Avicii has some good tracks, and this one leaves me tapping my feet. If you need a little pick-me-up and a good song, take a listen.

The video will pull at your heartstrings a little, so consider this your warning.

 

Happy Monday!

T

 

Hey Brother

by: Avicii

 

Hey, brother.
There’s an endless road to rediscover.
Hey, sister.
Know the water’s sweet but blood is thicker.

Ooooooh, if the sky comes falling down.
For you.
There’s nothing in this world I wouldn’t do.

[whispered] Avcii, Avicii, Avicii, Avicii.

Hey, brother.
Do you still believe in one another?
Hey, sister.
Do you still believe in love, I wonder?

Ooooooh, if the sky comes falling down.
For you.
There’s nothing in this world I wouldn’t do.

What if I’m far from home?
Oh brother I will hear you call.
What if I’d lose it all?
Oh sister, I will help you out.

Ooooooh, if the sky comes falling down.
For you.
There’s nothing in this world I wouldn’t do.

Avcii. Exclusive mix.
Avicii. Exclusive mix.

Hey, brother.
There’s an endless road to rediscover.
Hey, sister.
Do you still believe in love, I wonder?

Ooooooh, if the sky comes falling down.
For you.
There’s nothing in this world I wouldn’t do.

[whispered] Avicii, avicii, avicii, avicii.

What if I’m far from home?
Oh brother I will hear you call.
What if I’d lose it all?
Oh sister, I will help you out.

Ooooooh, if the sky comes falling down.
For you.
There’s nothing in this world I wouldn’t do.

 

Milestones


I had a moment yesterday, where I found myself in disbelief that my little girl was growing up. And that moment happened when we received the package of her graduation pictures.

Okay, it’s only Senior Kindergarten, but still, it’s a milestone.

I know we dressed her for her picture day; I even got her haircut a week before so it would look nice. We received the proofs and I ordered my package of pictures to hand out to proud grandparents and aunts and uncles, but when that package was sitting there, and there was her picture staring at me, it took my breath away.

In all its 8 x 10 glory, there she was in a little cap and gown, holding a scroll that reads diploma. She’s adorable and yet so grown up.

She turns six next month and I can’t help but wonder where the last six years went?!

It doesn’t help that we are in the middle of selling off and getting rid of all the baby stuff in our house. Soon we will dismantle the old nursery and turn it into an office, and so strange things are happening to my heart.

She is turning into a little lady, already showing signs of pre-tween behaviour, such as attitude, know-it-all-ness and the hardest one is that she doesn’t need us to help her as much anymore. And I’m glad she is an independent, more confident person. She is doing well in school and has a lot of friends.

As I type this, I feel so proud of her I could cry.

She still struggles with sharing her toys with her little sister, but something tells me that this will be a battle they will have for a long time to come. The toys will change to clothes and shoes, but from what I hear, this is a common trigger for sisters.

She loves the Little Mouse though, and she showed that last weekend when we attended a birthday party for one of her classmates. The mother of the birthday boy works at the school, and invited not only the kids from the class, but encouraged me to bring my little one. So when I told the Little Bird that her sister was going to come too, she was excited. And while at the party, she stopped playing with her friends a few times to check on her sister to make sure she was okay.

She is a sensitive, caring and beautiful little girl, who graduates SK in three months.

Congrats to my graduate, you make mommy and daddy proud every day!